Budd Schulberg

schulberg I once talked to Budd Schulberg, who died yesterday, on the phone; a mutual friend put us in touch in the Fall of 2003 - I was eager to put on an event to mark the 50th anniversary of 'On the Waterfront', and, innocent/enthusiastic/grasping and annoying film fan that I was, figured I should just call up the screenwriter and see if he wanted to come to a poetry club on Bleecker Street to talk about it while we showed clips.  He was 90 years old by the time I called - and if he had felt significantly older by the time the call was over, I couldn't blame him.  Grace and conciseness don't always come easy to me.  It's even harder than usual when I'm talking to someone whose identity - although he was just an ordinary guy (and Schulberg would have been at pains to remind people of that fact) - had become mutated and mingled with my memories and experience by virtue of having written a myth that had gotten under my skin.  'I coulda been a contender' is, of course, now a cliche - but that's not Schulberg's fault: someone had to write it down first, someone had to create it.

Now, who knows what kind of man was Budd Schulberg?

We know that he wrote 'On the Waterfront'.  We know that his life span was such that he was able to collaborate with both F Scott Fitzgerald (on a film called 'Winter Carnival') and Ben Stiller (who may turn 'What Makes Sammy Run' into a movie).  We know that he established the Watts Writers Workshop in the aftermath of the civil unrest.  We know he named names after he himself had been named as a Party member.  We know that he made documentaries for the army.  We know that he's in the Boxing Hall of Fame.  And I know that, a few years ago, even though my plans for the poetry club event didn't get beyond the idea stage, on the phone, at the age of 90, he was gracious, sweet-natured, generous and patient with a northern Irish film critic who thought - presumably like many others - that he had some special magic, just because he carved a cinematic myth into stone.  Rest in Peace.

I'm going to watch 'On the Waterfront' today.  Five of its principals have died in the past few years - a fact which only makes it seem more important: Rod Steiger, Marlon Brando, Elia Kazan, Karl Malden, Budd Schulberg.  It may not be a subtle film; it may have come from all kinds of ambivalent or complicated motivation (a film that justifies ratting on your colleagues); its dialogue may sound more theatrical than realistic...It may be all these things: but, and I don't know how much this should count for anything, other than the fact that it's true: every time I see it, it moves the hell out of me.

'On the Waterfront' is a simple story in which Brando stands up for what he believes in by refusing to give in to the corrupt oppression of gangsters who control the New York docks.  He is caught between a rock and a hard place, because his brother is a mob flunkey.  Brando’s character Terry is broken on the wheels of circumstance, his dignity stripped by not being able to follow through on the only natural talent he believed he had – boxing – because his brother’s job depended on Terry throwing a fight.  He’s a man who wanted ‘class’, who ‘coulda been a contender’, has been let down by his own choices, by the one guy he should have been able to trust, ultimately, he feels, by the whole world.  He feels that he embodies failure, although his priest, played by Karl Malden, understands the difference between ‘success’ and ‘honour’, says that ‘Every time the mob puts the squeeze on someone that’s a crucifixion; and those who keep silent about it are as guilty as the centurion.’

When Terry agrees to testify against the people who might kill him, ‘On the Waterfront’ is dealing with the sacrifice that is often required to be of any use in this world.  When he takes the risk of honesty, to do the right thing, his peers initially only stand by and watch; at which point,  ‘On the Waterfront’ is about how easy it is to get into bed with evil.   It is a well-worn cliché, but like many clichés, it’s true: all it takes for evil to prosper is that good people do nothing; or, as one character puts it: ‘I don’t know nothing I’ve not seen nothing and I ain’t saying nothing.’

That kind of silence, of course, kills.  It makes me think about what it would mean if we really were to speak out for those who have no voices.  Human beings everywhere are capable of terrorising others.  But human beings are also capable of crossing boundaries, loving people who are different, forgiving those who have hurt them.  It takes a huge psychological leap to be able to kill another human being – or even just to deliberately hurt them.  You have to pretend that the other person is less a ‘self’ than you are.

You have to wipe the slate clean before you can break it.

Human beings become broken slates because we have made it too easy to erase any sense of unique dignity from others.  The stories we tell teach us to devalue, and dehumanise others because of who they are, or who we think they are.  It is a tragedy that religious, political, and cultural mavens (like, I suppose, churches, governments or movie studios) reinforce this myth by implying that people need to become more like us before they can be part of us.   I imagine that Budd Schulberg knew this; and that it isn't stretching a point to also guess that he knew that it was not the path he imagined for a person who really wants to be a person - to contend as a human being – someone able to welcome and accept everyone, to relate to them with confidence, and not to put people into ideological boxes.  Schulberg knew that if we devalue the humanity of others, we cannot be fully human ourselves.

Healthcare and Me Part 2

Following from Part 1. Regular readers will know that in the past year, I embarked on a genuinely life-altering journey.  I emigrated to the United States, got married, and now make my home in North Carolina.  I love this country – its culture, its people, its landscape (you need examples?  Let's start with big city music performances and small town farmers' markets, Martin Scorsese and Stephen Colbert, the Ojai Valley and the Eno River State Park.  Just as American as industrial wastelands, George Bush and Grand Theft Auto )  It is a privilege to have been accepted here; I want to honor my adopted home by giving something back.  Part of that includes the desire to do whatever I can contribute to the discussion about a universal healthcare provision, free at the point of the use, to anyone in the United States.

The first time I had to pay for healthcare at the point of use, ironically enough, was when I was applying for permission to emigrate here.  The US immigration authorities in London apparently don’t trust the UK National Health Service.  The medical exam I was required to take for immigration purposes could only be done by a private doctor, who charged almost $300 for a 20 minute consultation.  (It’s important to note that this included an HIV test; because at the time, the United States would not admit as an immigrant anyone who is HIV positive.  I presume this means that the ranks of ‘huddled masses, tired and poor’ still stands as the Statue of Liberty’s invitation, but just didn't include people with AIDs.)  Thankfully, the vaccinations the immigration authorities insisted I receive (the incidence of tuberculosis among white middle class professionals being particularly fast-rising, I suppose) could be given by my own doctor at home.  For free.

The fact that the US doesn’t provide a similar system of free healthcare to its own citizens is not just a tragedy for those who fall through the cracks.  It is not just a harbinger of inefficiency – given the vast costs in terms of labor and other expenses that accrue when a population is disincentivised to invest in preventive healthcare.  It is not just the biggest reason I feel a chill factor in my adopted home.

It is an issue that goes to the heart of the question of what kind of society we want to be, how we want to treat other people, and what kind of ethics we want to guide our lives.

And people who insist on calling such a free system ‘communism’, ‘socialism’, or ‘oppressive’ may either know nothing of communism, socialism and oppression, or might just be distorting the truth to satisfy a vision of individualism.  A harsh way to put this would be to ask if the current debates about healthcare are really just skirmishes about human greed and selfishness, rather than serious discussions about how to ensure that no one goes without.

The good news is that the free UK healthcare system even has room for greed and selfishness!  Or, at the very least, enlightened self interest.  I'll post why later this week.

A Race Waiting to Be Born

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'In an infinite and eternal universe, the point is, anything is possible'

- Stanley Kubrick

'2001: A Space Odyssey' is one of those films that leaves me wondering if there's any point.  To watching, I mean.  Well, to watching other films, really; because '2001' is such a rich cinematic and theological experience you can't imagine anything else coming close to its visual richness, aural shock, and emotional heft.

I spent this afternoon watching the Blu-Ray (the best advertisment for Hi-Def I've yet seen) with the sound LOUD; and found myself enveloped by a familiar experience that managed also to feel strange, as if I'd never actually seen it before.

Apes.  Monolith.  Bones.  Violence as a way of life.  Exploration.  Mutual suspicion among human beings.  Love between family members and friends.  Monolith.  Noise.  More exploration.  Bad computer.  Violence as a way of life.  Very bad computer.  Shut down.  More exploration.  Invitation.  Journey.  Shattered Glass.  Re-birth.  Everything.

When David Bowman (I think we can assume his name is supposed to evoke both primal humanity and the repentant warrior known in the Bible as 'friend of God')  allows himself to be transported into his race's future, he is dying in much the same way as a caterpillar dies.  It's inevitable.  It's inevitable.  It's inevitable.  He knows it.  But some Thing tells him it's going to be ok.  Now, I'm the first to admit that applying the work 'ok' to the re-birth of the human race that climaxes '2001' is, at the very least, an understatement (of the kind that Professor Floyd is faced with early in the movie when one of his colleagues expresses the hope that his speech - about the threatened imminent destruction of the human race - could have been a 'morale booster').  But I'm so overwhelmed by the experience of seeing the film again that it seems impossible to know what the right word would be.  Evolution?  Revolution?  Redemption?

These words are too small; or their meaning has been lost through over-use.  Same with the kind of superlatives that we like to use to describe movies we like a lot ('the greatest').  But my purpose in writing is not to encourage you to agree with me; or to be impressed with the fact that I can come up with nice words (or disappointed in my failure to do so).  I want you to watch the film  Or maybe I want to feel that my love for it is somehow connected to it; as if such a thing were possible, given that I wasn't even born when it was made.  I'm running out of ways to say what I want to.  So I'll stop.  Instead of wasting your time with a defense of what I feel, let me risk just reducing it to one statement:

I think that, in dealing with the most profound questions of our existence, '2001: A Space Odyssey' is the most optimistic film ever made.

You are, of course, free to make what you want of that statement.  But I'm so excited by what I've just seen, for the tenth or twentieth time, that I really had to tell someone.  Hope you have a great weekend.

Skins

From Meister Eckhart: “A human being has so many skins inside, covering the depths of the heart. We know so many things, but we don't know ourselves! Why, thirty or forty skins or hides, as thick and hard as an ox's or bear's, cover the soul.  Go into your own ground and learn to know yourself there. God expects but one thing of you, and that is that you should come out of yourself in so far as you are a created being made and let God be God in you. Do exactly what you would do if you felt most secure. God is at home, it's we who have gone out for a walk."

Caution: we shouldn't assume we know what Meister Eckhart meant by 'God' - John Caputo evokes this in referring to God as 'the event'; but all language about God, we must assume, is inadequate.  So, at the risk of editing Meister Eckhart for my own purposes, let me say that I'm not sure what he meant either, but I'm pretty sure he's right when he says that we have wandered from where things work better.  And I know I have several skins that need to be shed.

Someone with a long history of courageous spiritual activism, mystical presence, and religious discipline once said to me that 'the spiritual journey with Jesus is a motherf*****'.  She's a person who knows.  Shedding the skins that cover who I really am, or really want to be (and bearing in mind that sometimes my interpretation of who I really want to be is pretty well hidden under one of my many skins), is a battle not unlike the pain of growing teeth for the first time.  Moving into a new space means leaving an old one behind; opening oneself to the possibility of change for the sake of becoming more human isn't a walk in the park.  The spiritual walk with anyone is a motherf*****.

I've got to head out in a couple of minutes and am trying to find a way to end this post - I'm in two minds about even putting it up, but something in me tells me I should.  The need for caveats and clarifications has the potential to overwhelm the desire to write something meaningful - gotta explain what I mean by 'God', or what I mean by 'skin', or what I mean by 'motherf*****'... And I can't.  I'm not sure how much good it would do if I could - because anyone reading is going to bring their own interpretation to all of this anyway.  So let me just say this: whatever you think about God's Being or otherwise, the notion that Meister Eckhart advanced that we should 'do what we do if we were most secure in love' probably isn't a bad lens through which to view your life today.  I'm in LA right now; and so am about to step out the door into a city of busy traffic, rampant commercialism, and some of the most oppressive opportunities to compare oneself unfavourably to everyone you meet.  I'm not feeling particularly secure.  But in my imagination, something else is possible.

This Week

I've had a lot of feedback about my Naked post; and am happy that it has provoked some conversation.  I'll write more on this theme in the future - please feel free to post comments with suggestions or questions for what you'd like me to explore.  I'm particularly interested in writing about the interaction between spirituality and sexuality; along with the kinds of questions Michael Pollan and others are asking about our relationship to food and psychology. This week I'm in LA til mid-week, speaking yesterday at All Saints Beverly Hills and Risenchurch Santa Monica.  We had some fun talking about spirituality and the body; and today I'm trying to get some writing done before seeing 'The Hurt Locker'.  Kathryn Bigelow's film is being cited as her best  (which is seductive, given that 'Point Break' does what it's trying to do better than most other films of its kind; and that 'Strange Days' took cybertechnology and crime seriously before it became the cliched trope of a hundred bad movies), and one of the tensest experience you could have a in a cinema (which is why I've avoided seeing it yet, not being sure that I'm in the right headspace for a war film whose reputation is built on being the most realistic depiction of combat horror realised for the screen).  But I plan to see it this afternoon; and I'll post about it here; we'll talk about it on The Film Talk soon.